je vous manque...

"I miss your love since you've been gone, I find it hard to go on.."

Yehey. Senior at last! Still Nitrogen and Mrs. Atendido as our adviser. Happy happy!

erm.. 2 weeks of classes had already passed. Another week is yet to be conquered. Many things already made me laugh, and made me cry.

I love the first week of classes. Though I didn't feel that the first day of classes was my birthday, I felt great. I think I already established a bond between me, my friends and Mam May. A bond that I know I will carry with me forever.

But a great ouch. It really does hurt. Witty told us that Mam May was confined in the hospital. Waaaa. And I even knew that she had undergone a major operation. Waaaa~~ !! My continuous happiness is over. I hate it so much.

Last Wednesday.. I was reading the "Uhaw ang Tigang na Lupa" while sitting on the floor and leaning to my classmate’s desk.. The students of Linear Algebra came and shouted "we have a new teacher in English!". And I was really shocked. I looked at her, but she didn't even greet us. She just proceeded to Mam May’s desk. I hated it.

I don't know why, but I cannot really accept that she is our new adviser/ English teacher. Up to now, i think I am just dreaming, a really bad dream.

No offense, but to be frank, I still want Mam May to be our adviser. To be honest, I want her to recover as soon as possible so you won't be our teacher anymore. I know I am so bad, but that's me. I just can't help but think that I could not accept you as our new teacher. No one could ever replace Mam May in my heart. It's just that my mind is telling me to force to like you, but my heart really objects. I am so sorry Mam.

And here I am, telling this story just to ease the pain that we are going through. I wanted to cry, but I know that it won't do anything. I am just praying that our Omnipotent Lord God will guide us in everything that we will do. Eventhough I am this wicked, I am still hoping for the best..

"Bumalik ka lang sa amin, nangangakong kami'y naghihintay sa'yo.."


I definitely miss Mam May.. I hope you recover now.. :{