October 20, 2008
Wahaw. I am actually super sick and tired of this life. Erm.. not literally about my life, but with the persons in my life. The person I trusted the most is walking away from me. I basically don’t know why. I hate it so much. This day, my best friend is not minding me, the most important teacher to me is angry at every one, except from HER, and we have many problems in these stupid forms. Shocks. I don’t know what to do now. i need a break.
Thank goodness that there is a semestral break next week. I badly need it. Maybe because I am so exhausted in going to school.
Defense mechanism? Yes. I admit it. But who the hell isn’t affected by what is happening? I am scared. I am coward. I know. Maybe because I actually don’t know what to do. I am scared of rejection. I am scared of seeing her getting angry at me. I am scared of her. I am scared of the lost friendship.
Basically, it never even crossed my mind that this will happen. I never knew that she has these guts to do those things. I mean, it is just that I never imagined that she will do it to us. I want this to end now. As in. I am missing you.
I know that this is not the right time… but I hope… someday, somehow. This will end…
Sunday, November 2, 2008
New hairstyle, new life
October 19, 2008
I noticed that whenever I am depressed, I ask someone to cut my hair or I cut it myself.
I could remember the very first time that I cut my own hair because of despair. It was when we are in third year. I was hurt by my friends and I hated it so much. That is why I decided to cut my hair, just before going to school. :D
This is the second time. Lynch and Kyrysh had a big fight and Kyrysh was so hurt. [By the way, Lynch is Kuya Migs and I am Kyrysh.] I treasure him so much. I treat him as one of the most special friends I ever had in my life. That may be the reason why I did it.
So there it is. I had my short hair. Sheez. And you know what? We reconciled later on, the night after I had the haircut. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I super hate it. My hair was wasted. Huhu.
So next time, I am really gonna think so deeply first before doing something that could ruin everything.
I noticed that whenever I am depressed, I ask someone to cut my hair or I cut it myself.
I could remember the very first time that I cut my own hair because of despair. It was when we are in third year. I was hurt by my friends and I hated it so much. That is why I decided to cut my hair, just before going to school. :D
This is the second time. Lynch and Kyrysh had a big fight and Kyrysh was so hurt. [By the way, Lynch is Kuya Migs and I am Kyrysh.] I treasure him so much. I treat him as one of the most special friends I ever had in my life. That may be the reason why I did it.
So there it is. I had my short hair. Sheez. And you know what? We reconciled later on, the night after I had the haircut. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I super hate it. My hair was wasted. Huhu.
So next time, I am really gonna think so deeply first before doing something that could ruin everything.
Missing My Deep Slumbers..
October 19, 2008
Last Friday, we tried to finish our research paper since it is to be passed on Monday for INTEL Philippines Regional Competition. Luckily, we finished it and we also had Mam de Vera’s signature.
I laughed at Mam Elain’s statement. “Ayan! Congrats! Makakatulog na rin kayo!” . I looked at her and she also laughed. “Pwera pala dun sa mga staff ng molecules.. Hahaha!”. But I just smiled and took her statement as a joke.
And so it happened. I went home and get my things. After eating dinner and washing the dishes, I rushed to the school for the overnight. Micah and I edited articles and did the sports page. I had a nap from 6AM to 7AM. Everybody had their breakfast, I hadn’t. I am super hungry that time. I also experienced sinusitis. A good thing Shai and others went outside and bought sinutabs for me. I placed the finishing touches in my page and before 12NN, our page was done!
I went home for I need to have my medical check-up. After having the test and taking a bath, I returned to the school to get my laptop since I lend it to Micah so she could finish some other parts. I just slept again, on the floor. Hehe. Then at 6PM, we fixed the room and we went home happily, though some parts are still undone. Thanks to Milky’s jokes again.
Last Friday, we tried to finish our research paper since it is to be passed on Monday for INTEL Philippines Regional Competition. Luckily, we finished it and we also had Mam de Vera’s signature.
I laughed at Mam Elain’s statement. “Ayan! Congrats! Makakatulog na rin kayo!” . I looked at her and she also laughed. “Pwera pala dun sa mga staff ng molecules.. Hahaha!”. But I just smiled and took her statement as a joke.
And so it happened. I went home and get my things. After eating dinner and washing the dishes, I rushed to the school for the overnight. Micah and I edited articles and did the sports page. I had a nap from 6AM to 7AM. Everybody had their breakfast, I hadn’t. I am super hungry that time. I also experienced sinusitis. A good thing Shai and others went outside and bought sinutabs for me. I placed the finishing touches in my page and before 12NN, our page was done!
I went home for I need to have my medical check-up. After having the test and taking a bath, I returned to the school to get my laptop since I lend it to Micah so she could finish some other parts. I just slept again, on the floor. Hehe. Then at 6PM, we fixed the room and we went home happily, though some parts are still undone. Thanks to Milky’s jokes again.
Imagine. 9 hours?!
October 15, 2008
When we arrived at Governor Ferrer Memorial National High School, we practiced on how we are going to present our research and on how to answer the possible questions of the panelists. Mam Ruby and Sir Moji gave us some tips on how to answer the questions.
At 11AM, we had the ingress. The panelists asked us some questions and we were so grateful that we know the answers to their questions. We had our lunch (yummy cheeseburger with COLESLAW) and waited for the congress.
We waited until 9PM. We hate it so much. From 12PM to 9PM, we waited for the congress and it lasted for not more than 5 minutes! They even asked one question, and it is very irrelevant to the research proper. It is about the photograph. Grr. I hate it so much.
When we arrived at Governor Ferrer Memorial National High School, we practiced on how we are going to present our research and on how to answer the possible questions of the panelists. Mam Ruby and Sir Moji gave us some tips on how to answer the questions.
At 11AM, we had the ingress. The panelists asked us some questions and we were so grateful that we know the answers to their questions. We had our lunch (yummy cheeseburger with COLESLAW) and waited for the congress.
We waited until 9PM. We hate it so much. From 12PM to 9PM, we waited for the congress and it lasted for not more than 5 minutes! They even asked one question, and it is very irrelevant to the research proper. It is about the photograph. Grr. I hate it so much.
So Close, yet so Far.
October 14, 2008
Today is the day!
I will have my laptop! I went to my father’s house to get the said device. But before going to their lair, me and my mom went to Divisoria to have the tarp be finished.
So… I arrived in Tayuman, all by myself. He gave me the laptop and asked me to eat lunch. After that, I slept and I woke up at 4.00PM. My mother was texting me to leave the house for we still need to get the tarp there. But because of the time, she was the one who got the tarp and we just met each other in Park n Ride. We went home and I saw the mistake in our tarpaulin. We tried to go back to Divi, but the shop is already closed. I really cried that time, but I could not do anything.
We arrived at 10PM. I started our presentation for the Division ASEP on Monday. I did not sleep at all. I expected that we will compete that day, without sleeping. It is a good thing that we will still have the ingress and the congress on the second day.
Today is the day!
I will have my laptop! I went to my father’s house to get the said device. But before going to their lair, me and my mom went to Divisoria to have the tarp be finished.
So… I arrived in Tayuman, all by myself. He gave me the laptop and asked me to eat lunch. After that, I slept and I woke up at 4.00PM. My mother was texting me to leave the house for we still need to get the tarp there. But because of the time, she was the one who got the tarp and we just met each other in Park n Ride. We went home and I saw the mistake in our tarpaulin. We tried to go back to Divi, but the shop is already closed. I really cried that time, but I could not do anything.
We arrived at 10PM. I started our presentation for the Division ASEP on Monday. I did not sleep at all. I expected that we will compete that day, without sleeping. It is a good thing that we will still have the ingress and the congress on the second day.
Set goals for a better life.
October 12, 2008
I don’t want to elaborate on this much, but I want to place it on my blog. I feel guilty and angry whenever I am thinking of this event. I lost. For the second time. Sheez. I am not worthy to compete in this contest. I hate it so much. Mam Lenny told me that it is because my attention is divided and I don’t set my priorities. And I realized that she is correct. I need to know my goals. But I actually don’t know how.
Shaider has the right to tell those words to me. “ Andami-dami mo kasing sinasalihan… Hindi mo na naiisip kung anung uunahin mo…” Those words penetrated into me. I was deeply hurt. But I don’t have the right. He is correct.
By the words these two people told me, I woke up. I need to set priorities. I need to know which is more important. But… I still can’t decide.
I don’t want to elaborate on this much, but I want to place it on my blog. I feel guilty and angry whenever I am thinking of this event. I lost. For the second time. Sheez. I am not worthy to compete in this contest. I hate it so much. Mam Lenny told me that it is because my attention is divided and I don’t set my priorities. And I realized that she is correct. I need to know my goals. But I actually don’t know how.
Shaider has the right to tell those words to me. “ Andami-dami mo kasing sinasalihan… Hindi mo na naiisip kung anung uunahin mo…” Those words penetrated into me. I was deeply hurt. But I don’t have the right. He is correct.
By the words these two people told me, I woke up. I need to set priorities. I need to know which is more important. But… I still can’t decide.
No Intrams!
October 12,2008
Last Monday, the Intrams kicked-off with crowd-cheering and stupendous moves shown by the captains in the stage. The 13 street dancers performed their winning piece in front of the whole school. Dana even cried since our performance was a bit messed up again because Aaron and Ria were missing, without us knowing.
I was anxious because we are to review for the DSPC on October 9-11, and I need to contact my writers at the same time! How am I supposed to do that? Hmm. I hate this intramurals.
Last Tuesday, we performed the winning piece (again) in Kalayaan Homes in Bucal because there was a convention of all the treasurers of Cavite. We were so happy because at last, our performance was great. After eating our free lunch, we returned to the school and I resumed in reviewing for the DSPC.
October 8, we still reviewed for the DSPC, while covering some games. I reviewed while watching some of my batchmates play. I supported them of course.
Haiz. I won’t be able to watch the awarding on Friday because of the DSPC. This intramurals really sucks.
Last Monday, the Intrams kicked-off with crowd-cheering and stupendous moves shown by the captains in the stage. The 13 street dancers performed their winning piece in front of the whole school. Dana even cried since our performance was a bit messed up again because Aaron and Ria were missing, without us knowing.
I was anxious because we are to review for the DSPC on October 9-11, and I need to contact my writers at the same time! How am I supposed to do that? Hmm. I hate this intramurals.
Last Tuesday, we performed the winning piece (again) in Kalayaan Homes in Bucal because there was a convention of all the treasurers of Cavite. We were so happy because at last, our performance was great. After eating our free lunch, we returned to the school and I resumed in reviewing for the DSPC.
October 8, we still reviewed for the DSPC, while covering some games. I reviewed while watching some of my batchmates play. I supported them of course.
Haiz. I won’t be able to watch the awarding on Friday because of the DSPC. This intramurals really sucks.
All Messed Up. :(
October 3, 2008
Yesterday, we slept [if we really sleep] in Mam May’s house for we are to perform again in Maragondon Town Plaza because of the Alay Lakad program. We finished our costumes. I slept at 2.15AM and woke up at 3.00AM to finish our costumes.
We joined the Alay Lakad and we performed again on the dance floor, but unfortunately, our dance was all messed up because of our costumes. It was really shameful. Someone even cried that time.
After watching the performance of PUP, we went to Mam May’s house to fix it and to get our things. We also discussed some matters about the troupe. It was the first time that I saw her cry.
After dismissing the other members of SALIW, we bought a can of sardines and adobo nuts for lunch. We ate together and after eating, we fixed the items we used for eating. While they are practicing for the Cheerdance, I slept at someone’s bed. When I woke up, I tried to help them with their routine. I went home with Jackie and rested at home.
Yesterday, we slept [if we really sleep] in Mam May’s house for we are to perform again in Maragondon Town Plaza because of the Alay Lakad program. We finished our costumes. I slept at 2.15AM and woke up at 3.00AM to finish our costumes.
We joined the Alay Lakad and we performed again on the dance floor, but unfortunately, our dance was all messed up because of our costumes. It was really shameful. Someone even cried that time.
After watching the performance of PUP, we went to Mam May’s house to fix it and to get our things. We also discussed some matters about the troupe. It was the first time that I saw her cry.
After dismissing the other members of SALIW, we bought a can of sardines and adobo nuts for lunch. We ate together and after eating, we fixed the items we used for eating. While they are practicing for the Cheerdance, I slept at someone’s bed. When I woke up, I tried to help them with their routine. I went home with Jackie and rested at home.
food food food.,..
September 23, 2008
We went to Royale Tagaytay for our Career Orientation. On the way there, we watched the movie “Now and Then” for our movie review in English. We watched it happily and everybody enjoyed it.
When we arrived there, we went to different booths of schools and get their brochures and freebies. Danica and I luckily got notebooks from MAPUA. Both of us enjoyed the place. We also had our name at the back of the JobsDB card. We were both so much into it. PERSONALIZED CARD!
At 3PM, we went to SM Dasmariñas. On the way there, we watched the last part of the movie. Luckily, we finished it before arriving at the mall. I was with Mam May, JL and Danica first, we were looking for a present to be given by Mam to her goddaughter that is to be baptized. While Mam is purchasing the doll, we bought ice cream cake from Bake and Churn. Then we strolled around the mall. Danica and I did not stop buying food, and my money really is gone. But at least, I felt happy.
When we went home, we waited for the bus driver for the bus is closed, and it is raining so hard. We were at the bus, and we planned something for Samm and Shayne. [everyone felt that kilig factor between them.]
I was beside Michael when we go home since Mam May is beside Danica. We had some agreements and we really felt happy in going home.
We went to Royale Tagaytay for our Career Orientation. On the way there, we watched the movie “Now and Then” for our movie review in English. We watched it happily and everybody enjoyed it.
When we arrived there, we went to different booths of schools and get their brochures and freebies. Danica and I luckily got notebooks from MAPUA. Both of us enjoyed the place. We also had our name at the back of the JobsDB card. We were both so much into it. PERSONALIZED CARD!
At 3PM, we went to SM Dasmariñas. On the way there, we watched the last part of the movie. Luckily, we finished it before arriving at the mall. I was with Mam May, JL and Danica first, we were looking for a present to be given by Mam to her goddaughter that is to be baptized. While Mam is purchasing the doll, we bought ice cream cake from Bake and Churn. Then we strolled around the mall. Danica and I did not stop buying food, and my money really is gone. But at least, I felt happy.
When we went home, we waited for the bus driver for the bus is closed, and it is raining so hard. We were at the bus, and we planned something for Samm and Shayne. [everyone felt that kilig factor between them.]
I was beside Michael when we go home since Mam May is beside Danica. We had some agreements and we really felt happy in going home.
Rewarded Efforts
September 7, 2008
After attending school, I went home to get my things for we are to spend overnight in Mam May’s boarding house tonight and on Saturday night, in preparation for our Street Dancing Competition on Sunday. I am kind of nervous already.
We practiced our steps while walking. Someone is bringing the radio while the others are dancing. After practicing and waiting for Dana’s van (for they won’t sleep on Mam May’s house), Milky is doing something on the bamboo pieces for our castanets. She is making everyone laugh with her silly jokes. The walking chuckie with the axe, with matching scary tune. I found Aaron very happy that time. Hehe.
We went inside the house and tried to finish our costumes, but unfortunately, we fell asleep. So we continued doing our costume on Saturday. Milky and I went to Pinagsanhan to get some “pinagkayasan” for our costume. We really felt very tired for it is so heavy and we still need to pass the hanging bridge and walk all the way to the house. Whew!
After eating breakfast, we continued doing our costume. We weren’t able to eat lunch for we need to finish our costume at 2:00 PM. I really wanted to cry that time for I could not do it perfectly. But I could not do anything, so I just let it.
We went to school without taking a bath yet. We practiced the dance while Kuya Dell and Milky are applying the spray paint in our costume. We use the castanets and perfectly done our dance. Mam May gave last minute advices to us, still hoping that we would win.
At night, we cleaned ourselves and we went outside to buy sanrio and gel. We also scouted for sunglasses because Mam May told us to have one. Alrich also treated us with pieces of bread. We also had picture taking moments by the light post. Alrich even danced in a street where we are the only ones there.
Upon arriving home, we had our hair braided. After that, we had our photo op again. (We really love the cam!) Then we slept, anxiously waiting for the sun to shine for us to showcase our talent.
ALAS SINGKO NA!! Lorena shouted. Everybody got up and prepared for the competition. We are still nervous. Then we proceeded to the Maragondon Town Plaza. While there are sounds, we just can’t help but dance.
The street dancing competition started. When we returned to the plaza, Ate Joy asked us to pray and gave pieces of advice to us. After waiting for our number to be called, we performed at the utmost energy we had to give in the exhibition. We saw Mam de Vera and Mam May very happy with our performance. After dancing and going out of the dance floor, we shouted and jumped for our efforts are at last given praise. Everybody were happy with our performance. We sat by the tree and waited for the announcement of winners.
“And the champion for Cluster B is group number… ONE! SALIW DANCE TROUPE OF CAVITE NATIONAL SCIENCE HIGH SCHOOL!” We screamed and jumped and ran towards the stage to get our prize. We were so happy.
We went home happily and changed our clothes. We went to Jollibee to eat our lunch, using the prize money. I went home after.
I watched our performance and I was really shocked. I never knew that we could really perform that well. XD
After attending school, I went home to get my things for we are to spend overnight in Mam May’s boarding house tonight and on Saturday night, in preparation for our Street Dancing Competition on Sunday. I am kind of nervous already.
We practiced our steps while walking. Someone is bringing the radio while the others are dancing. After practicing and waiting for Dana’s van (for they won’t sleep on Mam May’s house), Milky is doing something on the bamboo pieces for our castanets. She is making everyone laugh with her silly jokes. The walking chuckie with the axe, with matching scary tune. I found Aaron very happy that time. Hehe.
We went inside the house and tried to finish our costumes, but unfortunately, we fell asleep. So we continued doing our costume on Saturday. Milky and I went to Pinagsanhan to get some “pinagkayasan” for our costume. We really felt very tired for it is so heavy and we still need to pass the hanging bridge and walk all the way to the house. Whew!
After eating breakfast, we continued doing our costume. We weren’t able to eat lunch for we need to finish our costume at 2:00 PM. I really wanted to cry that time for I could not do it perfectly. But I could not do anything, so I just let it.
We went to school without taking a bath yet. We practiced the dance while Kuya Dell and Milky are applying the spray paint in our costume. We use the castanets and perfectly done our dance. Mam May gave last minute advices to us, still hoping that we would win.
At night, we cleaned ourselves and we went outside to buy sanrio and gel. We also scouted for sunglasses because Mam May told us to have one. Alrich also treated us with pieces of bread. We also had picture taking moments by the light post. Alrich even danced in a street where we are the only ones there.
Upon arriving home, we had our hair braided. After that, we had our photo op again. (We really love the cam!) Then we slept, anxiously waiting for the sun to shine for us to showcase our talent.
ALAS SINGKO NA!! Lorena shouted. Everybody got up and prepared for the competition. We are still nervous. Then we proceeded to the Maragondon Town Plaza. While there are sounds, we just can’t help but dance.
The street dancing competition started. When we returned to the plaza, Ate Joy asked us to pray and gave pieces of advice to us. After waiting for our number to be called, we performed at the utmost energy we had to give in the exhibition. We saw Mam de Vera and Mam May very happy with our performance. After dancing and going out of the dance floor, we shouted and jumped for our efforts are at last given praise. Everybody were happy with our performance. We sat by the tree and waited for the announcement of winners.
“And the champion for Cluster B is group number… ONE! SALIW DANCE TROUPE OF CAVITE NATIONAL SCIENCE HIGH SCHOOL!” We screamed and jumped and ran towards the stage to get our prize. We were so happy.
We went home happily and changed our clothes. We went to Jollibee to eat our lunch, using the prize money. I went home after.
I watched our performance and I was really shocked. I never knew that we could really perform that well. XD
three-day extravaganza!
September 7, 2008
Last Wednesday, Dana and I were very tired for we are practicing in the morning. We returned to the room and we found out that there is free lunch! Happy Birthday Serene and Pearl! Rice and Sisig, plus chocolate cake and mango-ube-chocolate ice cream. We are so full that time. We enjoyed it so much. [Not only because of the fun we shared together, but also because of the great food. OF COURSE! ^^,]
The following day, it was Shayne’s birthday. She gave free doughnuts in the recess in the afternoon. It was almost the same as what happened the day before it, but Shayne is in a bad mood. I could not approach her for I am afraid that she might just shout at me. I just let her think it over and feel that it is her birthday anyway.
September 5. It was Kim’s birthday. Pizza and Red Tea on the go! Everybody was happy for the free food. (As always.) Mam May, Shayne and I sat at the back part of the room and talked about our preferences in pizza. I basically hate bell peppers! :D
Happiness, oh yes. But after some thoughts, I realized that it is the last three-day extravaganza that will happen in our class. We are to graduate soon. But after the dramatic part, I am still thankful that these events gave chance to our class to bond.
Last Wednesday, Dana and I were very tired for we are practicing in the morning. We returned to the room and we found out that there is free lunch! Happy Birthday Serene and Pearl! Rice and Sisig, plus chocolate cake and mango-ube-chocolate ice cream. We are so full that time. We enjoyed it so much. [Not only because of the fun we shared together, but also because of the great food. OF COURSE! ^^,]
The following day, it was Shayne’s birthday. She gave free doughnuts in the recess in the afternoon. It was almost the same as what happened the day before it, but Shayne is in a bad mood. I could not approach her for I am afraid that she might just shout at me. I just let her think it over and feel that it is her birthday anyway.
September 5. It was Kim’s birthday. Pizza and Red Tea on the go! Everybody was happy for the free food. (As always.) Mam May, Shayne and I sat at the back part of the room and talked about our preferences in pizza. I basically hate bell peppers! :D
Happiness, oh yes. But after some thoughts, I realized that it is the last three-day extravaganza that will happen in our class. We are to graduate soon. But after the dramatic part, I am still thankful that these events gave chance to our class to bond.
Echinometra lacunter, 'til we meet again..
September 2, 2008
Last August 20, we returned to UPLB for our FINAL experimentation. And we really found the verdict of our research. POSITIVE! We proved that papaya could hinder the division of sea urchin gametes. I really felt so happy that time. At last. We are done.
We are still practicing for our Street Dancing Competition on Sunday. While I am busy weaving bamboo leaves for our costume, Shayne and Serene ran towards me. While panting, they told me that we are included in the INTEL Philippines. HELL YEAH! I really screamed that time. I was very happy. Eventhough we won’t win, we still participated in the said competition. And it is a great honor for me because our research is primarily my idea, and only few people could join the said contest. *super happy.*
But know, I don’t want to think of it first. I still have problems with our costume. I got to focus on it first. Good luck to us!
Last August 20, we returned to UPLB for our FINAL experimentation. And we really found the verdict of our research. POSITIVE! We proved that papaya could hinder the division of sea urchin gametes. I really felt so happy that time. At last. We are done.
We are still practicing for our Street Dancing Competition on Sunday. While I am busy weaving bamboo leaves for our costume, Shayne and Serene ran towards me. While panting, they told me that we are included in the INTEL Philippines. HELL YEAH! I really screamed that time. I was very happy. Eventhough we won’t win, we still participated in the said competition. And it is a great honor for me because our research is primarily my idea, and only few people could join the said contest. *super happy.*
But know, I don’t want to think of it first. I still have problems with our costume. I got to focus on it first. Good luck to us!
i hate cells!
August 15,2008
After series of tests, I really thought that our experimentation will be done today. We even brought a roll of cake in the laboratory for we really thought that it will be finished today. At roughly 1:00 PM, we just stared at each other, talked stories, computed for the concentrations, and asked everything we need to know about our research from Dr. Marfori.
At 4:00 pm, Dr. Marfori viewed our set-ups under the inverted microscope. And kaboom. Nothing actually happened. We accidentally let 2 sperm cells meet. We were not able to introduce egg cells in the system. How would a zygote be formed without egg cells?!!
I was very teary eyed that time. Doc was even teasing me. He keeps on saying”oh..bakit paiyak ka na? next time na pupunta kayo dito, perfect na natin yan…” They did not understand me. Basically, I was not crying for the failed experiment. But I pity my mom. We don’t have money that time and we still need to return to Laguna? I hate it. I hate myself. Why didn’t I think of checking under the microscope if it is really an egg cell. Now, my mom is going to suffer again. What should we do now?
We need to go back on August 20. Haiz. Another expensive trip. I promise, I will check every little detail just to finish this experiment. For my grades. For INTEL. For my groupmates. For my family. For my mom.
After series of tests, I really thought that our experimentation will be done today. We even brought a roll of cake in the laboratory for we really thought that it will be finished today. At roughly 1:00 PM, we just stared at each other, talked stories, computed for the concentrations, and asked everything we need to know about our research from Dr. Marfori.
At 4:00 pm, Dr. Marfori viewed our set-ups under the inverted microscope. And kaboom. Nothing actually happened. We accidentally let 2 sperm cells meet. We were not able to introduce egg cells in the system. How would a zygote be formed without egg cells?!!
I was very teary eyed that time. Doc was even teasing me. He keeps on saying”oh..bakit paiyak ka na? next time na pupunta kayo dito, perfect na natin yan…” They did not understand me. Basically, I was not crying for the failed experiment. But I pity my mom. We don’t have money that time and we still need to return to Laguna? I hate it. I hate myself. Why didn’t I think of checking under the microscope if it is really an egg cell. Now, my mom is going to suffer again. What should we do now?
We need to go back on August 20. Haiz. Another expensive trip. I promise, I will check every little detail just to finish this experiment. For my grades. For INTEL. For my groupmates. For my family. For my mom.
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