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this is my 4th night in playing fresbo. actually, i am quite enjoying it. though all you need to do is to pass the bomb, its fun!

to start my sentiments, i need to tell this..

WE ARE INNOCENTS.!!!!!

this past 2 weeks, we are so happy because of our research, yet we are hurt by them.

they teamed up against the two of us. most of the students from the remaining two rshs curriculum sections are joining that stupidity to bring the two of us down.

i simply don't know why they accuse that we stole their research. hello. february 14, 2008. my research was approved. do they still want to see my approval sheet?

and besides, would anything change if ever they won't stop bothering us? i really do hate them. i want to fight for our right, but i could not. i am still thinking of their welfare and the benefit of the people around us.

but mind you, if ever they won't stop, i'll apply the principle,


an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.

maghahalo ang balat sa tinalupan.

and i am serious about it. they should stop, or else...

i am nothing.

okay, and it had happened.

THE END.

haii. i really knew that this will happen. why did i ever believe that all was a reality, though my heart insists that it was a fantasy? a dream that will never happen?

i hate it. i am so attached to them/him/her already. and now, it seems that nothing will ever return to me.

i am open to reconciliation. i know i'm wrong, but i can defend that i am right too. didn't they know why i need to do it? wanna know the reason? simply because i love them. that's it. i don't really want to interfere, but it's just that.. argh. i can't explain it by mere words.

i am falling apart. nothingness fills my all. emptiness fills my sanity. i did nothing. i do nothing. i will do nothing. i am nothing.


it's my shortest post so far. actually, i created this post just to release what i really feel.


still hoping for the best. i know that He will help me. help you. and help us..


remembering sunday, i fall to my knees for i already miss you..

one last cry..

One last cry, one last cry, before I leave them all behind..


I simply don't know why I did that stupidity. I gave my "someone" a picture of a boy whom he really hates. Then, after that, he hates me too.

Last Monday, a friend of mine asked me if i could print a picture of her crush. I suddenly felt the responsibility not to say no. Then, when i was trying to print it, i thought of giving that "someone" that pic, though he really do hate that guy.

The following day, I saw that "someone". He noticed me passing by. So, i gave him the picture. He really got mad. As in. He even shouted tigilan mo nga ako! bitawan mo ako!!

Heaven and earth collided with me in between them. I tried to said sorry, but he refused to listen.

dismissal time. he approached me. i said sorry, but he is expressing neither approval or refusal. i look like a nincompoop there. he smiles whenever he is greeting the one i'm with [with matching waving of the hands and "hi pakner!"], but he frowns whenever he looks at me.


i cried. so much. i just need to stop since i still need to attend molecules meeting.

while i was walking towards I-H room, we talked.

are you okay?

no i'm not.

why?

i cried because of you.

i'm sorry.

no. you should not be. i should be sorry.


okay.


shaider.. wait. why are you saying sorry by the way? can you forgive me?


it's all right now. just don't do it again. you know i hate it so much.


thank you besh.. i..lo.. [and he walked away.]




hmm. stupidity kills. morale? don't do anything that will bring sorrow to your life. don't risk whatever you cannot afford to lose.




thank you besh.. i .. lo.. never mind.