So Pissed Off.

October 20, 2008

Wahaw. I am actually super sick and tired of this life. Erm.. not literally about my life, but with the persons in my life. The person I trusted the most is walking away from me. I basically don’t know why. I hate it so much. This day, my best friend is not minding me, the most important teacher to me is angry at every one, except from HER, and we have many problems in these stupid forms. Shocks. I don’t know what to do now. i need a break.

Thank goodness that there is a semestral break next week. I badly need it. Maybe because I am so exhausted in going to school.

Defense mechanism? Yes. I admit it. But who the hell isn’t affected by what is happening? I am scared. I am coward. I know. Maybe because I actually don’t know what to do. I am scared of rejection. I am scared of seeing her getting angry at me. I am scared of her. I am scared of the lost friendship.

Basically, it never even crossed my mind that this will happen. I never knew that she has these guts to do those things. I mean, it is just that I never imagined that she will do it to us. I want this to end now. As in. I am missing you.

I know that this is not the right time… but I hope… someday, somehow. This will end…