one last cry..

One last cry, one last cry, before I leave them all behind..


I simply don't know why I did that stupidity. I gave my "someone" a picture of a boy whom he really hates. Then, after that, he hates me too.

Last Monday, a friend of mine asked me if i could print a picture of her crush. I suddenly felt the responsibility not to say no. Then, when i was trying to print it, i thought of giving that "someone" that pic, though he really do hate that guy.

The following day, I saw that "someone". He noticed me passing by. So, i gave him the picture. He really got mad. As in. He even shouted tigilan mo nga ako! bitawan mo ako!!

Heaven and earth collided with me in between them. I tried to said sorry, but he refused to listen.

dismissal time. he approached me. i said sorry, but he is expressing neither approval or refusal. i look like a nincompoop there. he smiles whenever he is greeting the one i'm with [with matching waving of the hands and "hi pakner!"], but he frowns whenever he looks at me.


i cried. so much. i just need to stop since i still need to attend molecules meeting.

while i was walking towards I-H room, we talked.

are you okay?

no i'm not.

why?

i cried because of you.

i'm sorry.

no. you should not be. i should be sorry.


okay.


shaider.. wait. why are you saying sorry by the way? can you forgive me?


it's all right now. just don't do it again. you know i hate it so much.


thank you besh.. i..lo.. [and he walked away.]




hmm. stupidity kills. morale? don't do anything that will bring sorrow to your life. don't risk whatever you cannot afford to lose.




thank you besh.. i .. lo.. never mind.